I am happy to announce that I am back to making art. In fact I have even agreed to be part in two upcoming art shows. One is a Halloween themed show on October 20. The other is an 80s themed show set for November 10. Both will be at the OT Circus Art Gallery in Downtown Albuquerque. Below are the event links from the FB pages. It would really mean the world to me if some of my Albuquerque friends can make it to show some support and have some fun at the same time. I have most of my pieces for the Halloween show ready to go, though I may redo one or two. I am just working on sketches for the 80s show now. Tell me what you think of the gallery below. I need to narrow my Halloween pieces down to three plus one for the raffle that will be held that night. I need your input.
As most you probably already know, I dabble in art from time to time. Well it is time for some new art supplies and that means that I need to sell some art first! All the paintings posted below are only $15 shipped anywhere in the US. $10 to people in Albuquerque where I can deliver in person. Just contact me if you see something that you like.
So I have not been producing much art so far this year, but I am hoping to change that. Art is an escape for me. It helps calm my mind. I often feel happier after I engage in some art therapy. So why have I not been making more art? Life I guess. Depression for sure. But recently I did manage to whip out some watercolors for a friend as a thank you gift. It felt good to paint and even better to know that my friend loved them. So at least once a month I will be sharing some art. I am taking requests too, whether its just something you want to see here on this blog or if it is something you might actually want to commission, send me ideas on what to sketch and paint! If I am held at least a little accountable I will be more likely to keep producing art.
Art and self doubt seem to go hand in hand, at least I know that they do for me. The thing is I am not alone in this aspect. Many artist suffer from self doubt, sometimes to the point that its crippling. What is it about the creative mind that leads it to doubt itself? I wish I knew the answer and how to stop doubting myself and my artistic endeavors.
So what do I do when self doubt comes knocking? Well when I start to feel like I am the worst author in the world, when I feel like no one will ever want to read my books, when I feel like people are laughing behind my back about my art, I tend to go into a downward spiral of despair. I usually wallow in the feeling of not being good enough for quite some time, fighting to pull myself out of my funk. It's hard to get out of that mindset, but I struggle until I feel some confidence slipping back in.
How do I get my confidence back? Sometimes it helps for me to look at cold hard facts. Like the number of readers on this blog for instance. All of the books that I have already published and sold. Sometimes I remember that many great artists feel the same way and yet they continue to make art. Sometimes looking at art, listening to music, or reading great books can pull me out of my own mind for it is my mind that is my biggest enemy at times.
So my fellow creatives reading this, do you sometimes suffer from self doubt? How do you get your confidence back when it strikes? What helps you stop the doubt in its tracks?
Tomorrow night, Feb 17 is the closing night reception for the Let's Get Naked Again art show that I am so proud to be a part of! I hope to see you this Sat night from 5-9p! Many pieces of art are still available for sale. Light refreshments are available for our guests. The OT Circus galley is located between the Hotel Blue and Firestone Tires at 709 Central Ave NW ::: ABQ
Please come out and support local artists! Here is my naked blue tiefling that was my contribution to the show!
I am happy to announce that I will be part of the "Let's Get Naked Again" Art show tomorrow night at the OT Circus Gallery here in Albuquerque. I will have one piece in the show and another available as part of the raffle. Now this is a show of nude artwork, so 18 and above only! Come down and see what I have created and check out so many other talented artists! Want more info?
Here is the FB event page: www.facebook.com/events/145300539589716
October has been a rough month this far, but I have been pretty happy that I have been able to keep up with my Drawlloween challenge thus far. Sometimes that means sketching on a napkin or on ticket stubs at work, but I am getting stuff done! Here are a few of my sketches thus far.
It's October so that means that I am participating in Drawlloween again this year! Each week I will have a wrap up of my sketches for the week. I love this time of year as it gives me a reason to do art each and every day. Sometimes I need a little push for my art practice and this is always just what I need. To make it even more fun, one and sometimes two of my friends tend to do this challenge with me. We provide each other with encouragement and accountability, plus it's awesome to just see what they draw. If you want to come along for the ride, here is the schedule, you can always catch up!
I am working hard on some watercolor paintings for an upcoming Halloween art show at the OT Circus Art Gallery here in Albuquerque. I am so excited to be part of this show and here is a peak at 3 of the 5 pieces that I might be taking to this show. You can get more information on the event here:
This has been a rather hard week for me, especially on the creative side of life. I have been struggling with some health issues. My depression and anxiety have been pretty bad. I have also been suffering from some crippling self doubt when it comes to art and writing of late. Monday I seriously thought that I was having a complete breakdown. I doubted if I should continue art and writing. Maybe it is time to give up all these creative dreams and just get a full time job and be done with everything.
I think that all creative people go through these times of self doubt. As an author I have contemplated giving up before. It is sometimes hard to have the thick skin needed to be in this business. Rejection slips, bad reviews (and sometimes just plain mean reviews. I know that not every book is for everyone and I feel that constructive criticism is something one can learn from, but some reviewers get too personal and are just mean spirited. Not liking a book is not a reason to say terrible things about an author you have never met.), trolls who will bad mouth you for not giving them a free book or for not being who they think you should be, stalkers (yes I have had two), constant pressure to be on social media and more. It's a hard life sometimes, especially when it seems fewer and fewer people are reading nowadays. I have even given up writing before for short amounts of time, but I think that writing is in my blood and I keep coming back. I am still doubting myself right now, but I am back to blogging and editing and writing won't be far behind. I am fighting my self doubt the best way that I can.
Now when it comes to doubting my art, well that is harder to overcome sometimes. I am not very confident in my artistic skills. Art for me is usually a form of stress relief, yet I still want to be better at it. A few years ago I tried to take a class at my local community college, to work on improving myself and my art. The teacher instead of focusing on whether I had improved from day one, kept comparing me to someone whom we both knew, someone who had a bachelor's degree in art. I was not competing with an art graduate, I wanted to be better than I had been, but this teacher crushed me and left me feeling less than confident. I still feel that crushing of talent even though I continue to practice art on my own almost every day. Sure, I have even sold some art, but I always feel like that teacher was basically telling me that I will never be a good artist and that I should just give up. That is where I am at right now art wise, thinking I should give up art or at the very least never show anyone my art ever again.
I'm hoping that talking about this helps get me out of my funk. That some self confidence slowly starts to seep back into my being. Until then I guess I need to fake it until I make it?
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