Today I thought that I would get a little real here on my blog, have some real talk about some anxiety and depression issues that I have been going through and talk about how that has been affecting my writing and art.
So yes, I suffer from anxiety and depression both. Usually my anxiety spirals out of control until depression hits. Then I calm down and it all starts all over. Sometimes there are triggers that I can identify, sometimes there aren't. My depression has been rather bad for a couple of weeks, then I had a very emotional weekend and now today is a real struggle. Now here is something that people don't understand, even good changes and emotions can become overwhelming for me and send my anxiety sky high while adding to my depression as well. So something good actually sent me this low, well then last night I found out some sad and disturbing news that has just made today difficult.
So how does this affect my writing and art? Well I am finding it hard to concentrate and to even motivate myself to get up and do anything. I managed to make it through my day job and to get some exercise in. That's it. Now I am trying to write this blog. I should have picked a topic that promoted my books or writing in some way, but all my mind can think about is the spiral of worry and doubt that it is stuck in. That will make it really hard to write, but I will try to anyways and I guess see where it goes.
Why such a private topic? One as I mentioned that is where my mind is. Two I have been talking to the writing community on Twitter about mental illness and how it affects us as authors. I thought that I would carry that topic over to my blog. I have been trying to add more about mental illness into my writing this year, helping to make my writing more representative and more authentic to who I am as a person. This is where I am today, depressed and anxious, but still trying to write no matter how hard it is.
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